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What is Reality?

April 15, 2010

Something unexpected happened today.

An outcome I had anticipated, even banked on, turned out to be very different from the picture I had in my mind and it has upset my world so much that I aware of four different realities.

There is the physical reality - something that was supposed to make a huge positive difference to my life has not manifested.

Then there's the reality of what I'm thinking - maybe I should give up trying because nothing ever works out the way I want it to.

There is the reality of what I'm feeling - disappointed, disheartened, frustrated, sick, scared, worried.

And then there is the reality of the truth. I am still the same person I was when I got up this morning. Circumstances have not changed in the way I would like them to have changed and that has caused physical, mental and emotional upheaval but the truth of who I am has not altered.

I am still me. I am still here. There is always hope.

So, today I am disappointed by life but yet I know that I have the strength and resilience to try again tomorrow and the day after and the day after that if necessary, because I know I deserve better, I am worth more and I can be, do and have everything I desire - otherwise I would not feel the desire – and the disappointment.

That is the truth and that is the only reality that matters.